I wanted to write this post, because the past week or so has been a challenging time for me. For someone who writes a Self-development and wellbeing blog, I most definitely was not portraying what I preach and you know what? Sometimes that’s ok.
So, Im sat in Costa with a large hot chocolate, ready to pour my heart out, because it’s not always easy and I feel this is a message that needs to be heard.
We all go through struggles and this topic is a hard one for me in-fact but, the whole purpose of this blog is to keep it real. For YOU.
LISTEN TO YOUR HEART
My inner being was screaming at me for too long, yet I ignored it. I ignored it because I thought I knew what was best, I would turn to my oracle cards for guidance only for them to reinforce what my heart was already telling me, “Hm theres something wrong with them” I thought.. but clearly I was kidding myself because my intuition was what I really needed to follow.
I was being called to take a step back from my relationship. A relationship that I have been in for 7 years. My childhood and adulthood all in one. My support system. My BEST FRIEND. But why?
I began to disconnect from my authentic self in result of ignoring this feeling and consequently started to suffer emotionally. Even though I knew what my heart was telling me, I was afraid. It didn’t make sense to me.
I woke up in the middle of my sleep 2 nights ago to find myself hysterically crying. That was when I knew that this was deeper. This was something I needed to face and suppressing it was only taking it’s toll on me. Often pulling away from something that you have been familiar with for soo long can be challenging.
While I am no where near looking to lose my relationship and I truly believe my boyfriend is a beautiful soul, I know that the love I have for myself needs to be strengthened.
I realised that my self love issues had started to reflect onto our relationship. So, at the moment I am focusing on myself more. He respects my feelings immensely and knows that this is something I need to do for ME.
I keep faith in that “What is meant to be, will be”. I have started a 40 day self love meditation practice and will be doing things that fill my soul.
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What I’m trying to say is…
It’s okay to take a step back. To reassess and listen to what’s going on inside.
If your heart is calling, listen to it – Even if it doesn’t initially make sense.
Often when we are blinded by pain and upset, we forget that things happen for a reason and usually lead us to something better or down a path of healing and growth.
Don’t ignore the next step, because that next step is what’s needed for your personal growth. I realised that sacrifice is a massive part of uncovering who we truly are.
Have faith that you are being lead to something for your highest good. Have you ever been through a tough situation before only to look back and think “AH! Thats why”!.. I have!
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Listen to the whispers from inside,
They are callings from your soul for a new ride.
Challenges are needed for your growth,
Take the leap, take the oath.
You will be healed as you learn,
The past is not something to yearn.
Listen to your soul,
Listen to your heart.
What is the next step needed for you? Maybe you have been ignoring what’s inside your heart?
On a side note:
I watched the film “Geralds Game” a few weeks back (find it on Netflix) and I felt a connection to the opening song “Bring it on Home to me” by Sam Cooke ( an old 60’s song) so I have since have it on repeat..
As I write the ending of this post, the song is playing from the shop speakers. The synchronicity is a sign for me. LISTEN TO YOUR HEART.
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